Beach!

From video beach

Video fuer mom! ^^

Hier is n Video von meinem Zimmer in Ct!^^

From Video room

Viel Spass!

Mee

Hier mal n paar neue pics von mir!^^

~inside me~

I thought I could learn
to hate you...
but you still call me baby!
Oh love, please call me by my name!

Save our souls
before we're too far gone,
and nothing can be done...
I tried to decide
wether I should lie or hide
from myself...

Should I be honest?...
every thought I gave you, my angel
was plain
and cut into my heart
until there was only pain!

it's bleeding...bleeding...
but you kiss my wounds
with every word you say,
with your voice as medicine,
for the damage you caused
deep inside me...

I don't wanna fight anymore
I'm tired of trying.
This whole damn thing
seven years,
it stared only as a sin...


But hold on!...
You're the only one
who can change this.
but you don't even know
cause I don't show

I just wish
I only dream...

I wanna stand there and freeze,
holding you in my arms
wish i could tell you...oh please...
I don't wanna believe...

~I'm in love~

Out in the City...

I wonder if it alway has to end this way for people whjo r not from the city?
I think it doesn't really matter if u r only a tourist or if you just don't live in the city permanently...if you're goin out in a group and there's some alcohol involved it alway ends up beein something weird and sometimes aweful!
Weird only if the people wanna have fun but there's some circumstance that makes it not possible to go like, let's say somebody doesn't get into the place u wanna go!
And then it get's aweful if you mix that same scenario with alcohol! ^^
But on the other hand u can have an awesome night just beein two people not haveing that much to drink and just dancing till everything hurts!
So to give some examples I have these tewo stories:
1. The Birthday Massacre!
Richard, my friend here from CT, who is the most awesomest (if that's a word?^^) person I know cause he's THE first person I can have actual conversations with for HOURS!!!!! Anyways it was his 32nd Birthday last Thursday (04/23)...or the one before...and I gave him tickets to go see " Dommin", "I am Ghost" and "the Birthday Massacre"...but mostly for the last one we went there!
So we arrived in the City around 6pm, ate and got to the "highline Ballroom" at 7pm! They started the Concert at around 8.30?pm...something! Anyway we were just in such a good mood! Even though we only had 2 Manhatten and three beers..(me)...we had the greatest party EVER!!! like dancing and goin Crazy and everything!!!! It was absolutely perfect! (since after I got some Pics with the Bandmembers) *big-smile*

2.Saturady Night
This was aweful! We (Richard,me and some friend which names should not be mentioned) wanted to go into the city but it ended up beein an desaster cause some people thought they hav to drink a whole bunch of mixed bullshit before they go even into the club and on top of that they didn't know how much they can take and ended up beein totally trashe before we even set foot in that Club!!! Which made me pretty pissed!!! Hell!!!!! No more! ^^

But I guess everybody has their own stories about hitting the city and ending in some kind of movie setting were u just think one more time how amazing it is to just live your life and not even realize how easy it is for you right that moment!
Like, everybody complaines about their situation but in moments like these it is just right and you really don't care what is gonna happen the next day!

The reason for that behaviour doesn't matter! It doesn't matter if you're hell ass drunk or just incredibly happy! The point is that you're living in THAT very moment and you're in that big city were nobody knows you and you don't really care about anything cause of that very reason!
Which gives u the freedom to simply enjoy the moment/night/situation/live how u want it!
Lesson of the Week:
Let loose and simply try to enjoy your life as often as you can!!!

Nature...

I woke up this morning at 8.05am and couldn't fall back asleep!!!!
So I decided to run with Oliver to the beach! Which was a really smart thing to do cause this morning it was soooooo beautiful and sunny and not too cold so it was perfect! And since I never ran there in the morning I just decided to do that together with Oli.
And did anyone realize how beautiful and amazing the beach is in the morning???
It was soooo faszinating to me it was just wonderful! I totally enjoyed sitting there in the morning sun and feeling the wind and everything! It was amazing!
So hopefully it's nice tomorrow! ;P

rainy boring Monday...

Ok Christin just corrected me bout a hundret things I just wrote wrong in my last post but hey!... I wrote that stuff last night at 1am cause i was bored!!!! ^^
Well anyways....today is the typical Monday that nobody likes cuz it's rainy and grey and there's just nothing to do! =(
Except for goin to the gym later^^....and cleaning the house a lil (not that it would need it but I'm more talking bout my room then "the house") ^^
And then tonight I'm gonna hit Starbucks...like every Monday...just to do something!...

Wuuahhhh and I found a friend of mine...or she found me...and it is soooo funny cause we both changed like 180 degrees!!!! Seriously totally different then we knew each other and it is awesome cause we love each others styles! ^^
She's so sweet! And I just can't help it but the German dialect is sooooooo funny! Hell I'm just wondering how I'm ever supposed to get used to it again? hihihi...



~LOVE YOU ISS~

Me on Tour!

Yeah as u can see I'm havin a blast up here in CT!
First I wasn't so sure if it would be the right thing to be here in little Ct but then I found some friends(the crazy people on my facebook page^^) and we're just rockin the bars as often as we all can get together! And I'm really glaad that I found those guys cause as some of u know...I'm just not that good with other Au Pairs!? I donno why but I just don't get along with them well for a long time! Oo?...well with some I do which basically means hangin at the bars every once in a while but better then nothing right? ^^
So besides partying I really enjoy beeing with my wonderful girls (who are on vacation in Florida right now...buuuhuuuuu!! =((( I'm here all along with Oli/the doggi) I also try to work out as often as i can!
WoW!!! And i got news from Germany! My mom sgonna get a reeeeaaaaally cute little puppy at the beginning of may! Isn't that so wonderful?
His name's gonna be Quiero! ^^

Soooooooooo cute!
So yeah everything's fine and awesome over there too!^^
Love you guys!^^
XOXO

There U go! ^^

Holy Shit!!! I was gone for a loooong time!

OMG!!! I just realized that I wasn't even on here since January!? This is really embarrasing and defenitely NOT ok!!! I'm Sorry guys! And I KNOW I keep saying that! ^^
ok here's some new stuff that maybe some of u didn't see yet but the chances r pretty weak cause I have it all over the place!
On like 4 community pages that i have right now which is pretty rediculous but I just try to keep in touch and of course updated! ;P ...But why is it though that everybody has to have 5 different pages now? It's pretty stressful but hey?...what r we gonna do?

New Year!?

Hey my sweet lovely people who still read my blog even though I literally don't post anything!? ^^... Sprry bout that!
Soooo....how was your New years/ Silvester???
I was in NY City!!!! Yeahhh! We drove there at 9pm and then went to Central Park to see the ball drop (between the buildings/really small) but the fireworks were right behind us and reeeeaaaally beautiful! Then my friend Olga and me went to a nigtclub calles "touch" which was so awesome the clubs in NY are in no comparison to the German ones! (100 bil times better^^) and we were there till 8am...meaning in CT at 9:30am! But it was soooooo great!!!

So what did you guys do? tell me something! ;P
Miss you all!
*Kisses*