Beach!

From video beach

Video fuer mom! ^^

Hier is n Video von meinem Zimmer in Ct!^^

From Video room

Viel Spass!

Mee

Hier mal n paar neue pics von mir!^^

~inside me~

I thought I could learn
to hate you...
but you still call me baby!
Oh love, please call me by my name!

Save our souls
before we're too far gone,
and nothing can be done...
I tried to decide
wether I should lie or hide
from myself...

Should I be honest?...
every thought I gave you, my angel
was plain
and cut into my heart
until there was only pain!

it's bleeding...bleeding...
but you kiss my wounds
with every word you say,
with your voice as medicine,
for the damage you caused
deep inside me...

I don't wanna fight anymore
I'm tired of trying.
This whole damn thing
seven years,
it stared only as a sin...


But hold on!...
You're the only one
who can change this.
but you don't even know
cause I don't show

I just wish
I only dream...

I wanna stand there and freeze,
holding you in my arms
wish i could tell you...oh please...
I don't wanna believe...

~I'm in love~

Out in the City...

I wonder if it alway has to end this way for people whjo r not from the city?
I think it doesn't really matter if u r only a tourist or if you just don't live in the city permanently...if you're goin out in a group and there's some alcohol involved it alway ends up beein something weird and sometimes aweful!
Weird only if the people wanna have fun but there's some circumstance that makes it not possible to go like, let's say somebody doesn't get into the place u wanna go!
And then it get's aweful if you mix that same scenario with alcohol! ^^
But on the other hand u can have an awesome night just beein two people not haveing that much to drink and just dancing till everything hurts!
So to give some examples I have these tewo stories:
1. The Birthday Massacre!
Richard, my friend here from CT, who is the most awesomest (if that's a word?^^) person I know cause he's THE first person I can have actual conversations with for HOURS!!!!! Anyways it was his 32nd Birthday last Thursday (04/23)...or the one before...and I gave him tickets to go see " Dommin", "I am Ghost" and "the Birthday Massacre"...but mostly for the last one we went there!
So we arrived in the City around 6pm, ate and got to the "highline Ballroom" at 7pm! They started the Concert at around 8.30?pm...something! Anyway we were just in such a good mood! Even though we only had 2 Manhatten and three beers..(me)...we had the greatest party EVER!!! like dancing and goin Crazy and everything!!!! It was absolutely perfect! (since after I got some Pics with the Bandmembers) *big-smile*

2.Saturady Night
This was aweful! We (Richard,me and some friend which names should not be mentioned) wanted to go into the city but it ended up beein an desaster cause some people thought they hav to drink a whole bunch of mixed bullshit before they go even into the club and on top of that they didn't know how much they can take and ended up beein totally trashe before we even set foot in that Club!!! Which made me pretty pissed!!! Hell!!!!! No more! ^^

But I guess everybody has their own stories about hitting the city and ending in some kind of movie setting were u just think one more time how amazing it is to just live your life and not even realize how easy it is for you right that moment!
Like, everybody complaines about their situation but in moments like these it is just right and you really don't care what is gonna happen the next day!

The reason for that behaviour doesn't matter! It doesn't matter if you're hell ass drunk or just incredibly happy! The point is that you're living in THAT very moment and you're in that big city were nobody knows you and you don't really care about anything cause of that very reason!
Which gives u the freedom to simply enjoy the moment/night/situation/live how u want it!
Lesson of the Week:
Let loose and simply try to enjoy your life as often as you can!!!